A Birthday, A Funeral & A Wedding

"I simply remember my favourite things, 

and then I don't feel so bad."

My Favourite Things

Oh, how long has it been since I last wrote a personal piece? I miss this place 💛

It's finally here. The season I've been waiting for since my early 20s - I entered 30! ✨

And it was the best thing ever. 

Many things have changed, the people I usually hang with, the things I thought I like, and the insecurities that have been clinging to me for years. Some stayed, and some left. And when I thought my heart couldn't take it in anymore, to my surprise it only made me grow stronger.

This is the year when I celebrated my birthday intentionally with the people I love & enjoy.

It was also the year when I had a funeral for the things that have been dead long ago but I clung on to for years. A simple but tough funeral in the form of a diary entry. 

Saying goodbye was harder than I thought.

And a wedding...well, that is a secret. 🤭

Honesty has been a big part of my journey so far.

I remember telling myself that this year I will start to "not be shy to admit what I want & go after it" and "be honest with my 'yes(es)' and 'no(s)'. Fear creeps in at times I fell into the temptation to lie a little but got back up quickly again.

There's nothing much to write about, but I just felt like writing.

To remember and leave a mark that this season existed.

I'm genuinely happy with who I have become. I feel liberated and strong, to be able to just be. Admitting and accepting my weakness and strengths. Not needing to 'pretend' or 'strive' to become someone I'm not. And just being able to love people wholeheartedly, is one of the biggest gifts that God has given to me. "I'm not a good person, and I'm imperfect." but that doesn't stop me from learning to love better.

This season is such a gift. There were good days when I feel like I'm on mountain tops, but there were also dark valley days when I literally had to sleep and rest to recover. 

But all in all, I'm grateful.

That's all for now, I'll see you when I see you again #myhappyplace. 

Ta!